Let It Be

Dec. 31, 2008

The year is up. Another year full of letdowns and regrets; chalk it up with the rest. Now, looking forward, what resolutions can I botch? What goals can I toss into the bin of the unattained? Which friends and family will I disappoint? And when will I catch my break?

Actors everywhere, the good and the bad, seem to at least have one memorable year, one where opportunities outweighed the disappointments. And somehow, someway I need it to be 2009. I've given out hundreds of headshots and spent countless hours in line at auditions and still have had years the homeless would put to shame. I work hard. I put myself out there and I'm talented. Something deep inside pushes me to continue, telling me I was born for this. I can't turn my back on it or myself. I need it to be 2009. It must be 2009.

Rejection, like water on gremlins, turns me into an ugly creature. I can only take so many before I'll be running amuck and causing havoc. My brother's suicide doesn't help. Moving out here with him, with someone who understood and cared. Someone who saw talent in me besides me yet threw in the towel with no explanation. That doesn't help. I can only focus on doing this for a little while longer. Please be 2009.

Aaron Stone
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